calico scars

there is nothing safe about you!
there is nothing you have that holds me down!

stop making me scream, stop making me regret.

you're making me turn on everything that i tell you
you make me want to rebel against the rules i set myself
but not in a good way.

you want me to break the good rules.
you want to shape me so you can have me.

you gave up asking why i stared at the sky
and now you grab my face away

you gave up asking me about the music;
you gave up the music entirely.

you gave listening to me, when i talk about love
and told me i'm selling myself short.

you gave up listening to me,
and started yelling at me.

you gave up figuring me out
and decided to fit me to your life
so you wouldn't have to.


but that's not love.
and when people see this
they'll stop looking.

it's easier to never start
because you never hurt anyone

god knows i've done that
because my heart never
worked right in the first
place.

and now when she sees him
she turns to me and goes
that poor bastard.

and she's so right.

and despite the fact that you
want me different

you still hold me the same.


and it's not that i don't get you.

i get you too well, and this is not right.

and it will never work when i can't
look you in the eye.